Gods Timing

(I hope this blog post doesn't make anyone uncomfortable, but I really need to vent about things in my recent past)

I've had about a week now to process the events of last monday (for those who know me, which I mean, 7 people are following me. I hope you all know me) I've been through a very, very rough week this past week, and it's been a terrible time for me.

But in terms of my spiritual life, I can't remember a time any better.

God truly does work in mysterious ways. Sometimes, His ways are not always what we would like them to be. In fact, I wish this had never, ever happened to me, but it did. And God is so Loud right now. And for that, I'm thankful. Through all of this, God has opened my eyes to things I've tried to forget and has said, "Uh, hey, you may have forgotten, but I haven't. Go make things right" So I've mended a few relationships, told some people sorry, and made something right. Now, am I all of the sudden holy? Oh no, I'm not by a long shot. Now though, I'm realizing I have to own up to my mistakes rather than just hide them and pretend they're not there.

As I said, do I wish things had happened this way? Oh no. It's not very fun having your heart ripped directly from your chest. The only thing that's good for really is song writing I think. Which, I have been doing lots of:

Breaking hearts comes naturally to you it seems
Opening cracks in your life and letting others fall in between
Wasting all of your time chasing the latest scene
While the ones who love you the most are left only with a dream
Oh how quickly the times can change
Well, it's not that strange
When everything you knew was just a lie
I guess that would make time fly by

I don't know where you are, but make this impostor leave me be
You're a good actress babe, but you're not fooling me anymore

These lyrics seem harsh, but they help me. That's all I really want to say about all of this though.

"Give us today our daily bread and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors"